have the grace to ask...

sigh, i just got back from butterwills? i think thats what its called. i sat there for a good 3 hours, drinking 2 gorgeous, brilliant beers, taking the largest step back i've ever taken. the boys can reconigize this step because i force them to do it, haha. the reason i wanted to go have a few drinks alone, is due to the only fact that im in cant.terbury. its amazing to me to be listening to the songs ive been hearing for the last 3 hours and staring at life in its most literal form ever.

this summer...what have i done. well, ive passed a class thats taken me 4 times to pass, not only passed but ended up with a b. proved to myself that i do in all honesty have the control i thought i did. i also, went skydiving 3 weeks prior to leaving for england. yes dad, i spent 303 dollars at san marcos skydive. buying a t-shirt, a 100 dollar pass to go again, and my jump right before.

i honestly could care less about money.

the best moment i've had since ive been here just happened. i took the mepaphorical step back and realized how much ive accomplished since age 0. ive graduated high school, been a vital part of a band that was placed 7th in the state o texas. ive proved college board wrong, i've learned how to make coffee to the most perfectious sense. ive had my heart broken. ive listened to the greatest music, at the greatest times...ever. ive discovered what its like to walk on fire. ive understood the ideas of relativism and absolutism. ive walked on the same floor that jayson williams, carlos boozer, shawn battier, grant hill, michael jordan, and elton brand has walked on....ive been steps away from coach k, ive shook barack obama's hand, ive understood the idea that is an internal locas of control...

ive proved college board wrong

ive bussed tables, ive gotton speeding tickets. been burnt by the metaphorical flame. ive touched stonehenge, ive done something that scared me...everyday. ive fallen 2 miles out of the air, ive done so much that i cant even come to realize the feeling i have right now....

the thing that gets me about england is...almost the way that ive proved myself, to be myself. for instance, i just got a nother free glass from a pub. reason being because ive got the kind of charisma to talk someone into that. im able to b.s with them just longenough to get what i want.

when i was in london, i realized that i will never be dictated by any one event ever. i hope that i can go to sleep.